i don't know why

sometimes i'm content...

sometimes i'm nostalgic...

sometimes i'm sad...

sometimes i'm angry...

why do i have to be this way?

incomprehensible and indeterminable?

i'm sorry i sometimes need to cuddle in close

maybe i just need some warmth...

i'm sorry i sometimes need to grasp someone

maybe i just need to feel someone cares...

i'm sorry i sometimes need to make myself the center of the world,

as if it were the sole way to make my existence meaningful.

i'm sorry, because this is not who i want to be.

all i want is find some meaning

and, yes, some warm cuddly feeling would be nice too...

if it isn't too much a luxury to ask for.